Award-winning writer, public speaker, and model Jamie Windust shares thoughts on their work, identity, adoration of the charity Shout and hopes for the future, on Happiful’s podcast I am. I have
In late December 2019, Jamie Windust joined the Happiful team in central London to record I am. I have. Although the year was approaching its end, for Jamie there was no sense of winding down as book deadlines, media engagements and the release of their TedXLondonWomen talk loomed large on the steadily approaching 2020 horizon.
Jamie’s portfolio of work has grown since the beginning of 2019 and, just as a snapshot, includes; writing, editing Fruitcake magazine, modelling, supporting mental health charity Shout and Girl Vs Cancer, speaking on issues facing the LGBTQIA+ community, and most recently their Ted talk about the urgent need for everyone to consistently, and actively support the trans community.
“I started as a freelancer, really just writing about identity, and I still do write about identity quite a lot,” Jamie explains. “I can and do have joy within that but also by writing and speaking work that is not identity specific, it’s about fashion, beauty, politics…
“I've learned to know that there's more to me than just asking people for allyship. I think that's important and I still continue to do that, but that has meant that I've had to really put in some emotional coping mechanisms so that I could continue and not feel completely drained.
“At the beginning I would do everything, but not realise the emotional impact that it has on you as a person.”
Protecting themselves from this emotional impact involves managing the expectations of others around their identity and outwards appearance. “I am more than what I look like,” Jamie shares, is about challenging that statement for themselves too.
“When I would do public facing work as a nonbinary person in makeup and in the way that I present, it could almost sometimes look like that’s saying there's only one way to look non binary. That's really not true.
“I've tried to challenge that within myself, by not always wearing makeup or switching it up and kind of changing how I feel, changing what I wear to see if it impacts my identity. What I've realised is actually it hasn't at all.
“It’s impacted the way that I am received by people, I guess, in a more positive way. I don't receive as much discrimination publicly.”
Jamie reflects that this response gave them further food for thought. “I had a mixture of reactions so I religiously went makeup free for about three weeks. What was interesting was within that first week I still encountered homophobia on the streets. However, en-masse, the reaction was very different and it was almost like I was flying under the radar and kind of just slotting in, which was quite a dichotomy - I felt very happy about that because I hadn't had it for so long, but I also got to a point where I felt like I wasn't being authentic, although I was still valid to my identity, a large part of that is tied up with expressing myself in a way that I want to.”
Jamie began to incorporate make up back into their life to honour this and now they feel they’ve now hit “a middle ground”.
Reflecting on other experiences in the last year, Jamie continues to be supportive of Shout, a mental health charity and text service they were introduced to by Scarlett Curtis, when she asked them to contribute to the stunning book It’s Not OK To Be Blue and Other Lies.
As the podcast chat turned from the past year to years ahead, Jamie’s hope for themself in 10 years time is being happy and feeling proud of the work they’ve done. They also hope that laws will have changed.
“I would also want to see that the things myself and the wider community have been working on are a distant memory and something that we’re now just living a part of and are living with. For example, I campaigned for X passports... I hope legislation changes.
“I hope that in 10 years I can say to myself 'things have moved forward, you got through that rough bit ten years ago and now it's actually fine.'”
Listen to Jamie’s podcast and find out more about the proces of preparing for TedXLondonWomen, conversations around cis privilege and how they work to celebrate themselves.
Follow Jamie and find out more about their work - and please watch their TedXLondonWomen talk - Support For Trans People Isn’t Radical - It’s Urgent.
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